Last 2 or 3 years, too many Christian friends have died early and suddenly. I suspect that they are tired after fighting the good fight of faith being gay and Christian. It is not being conflicted that is the issue, for most have reconciled their Christian faith and their sexual orientation, but they have lost so much of their lives. At the end of the day, many have lost everything. It is too much for them to bear. I don’t blame them. I missed many of them.

How do we walk by faith? Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of the Lord. It is not listening to some theologian preaching about his/her own man-made religious construction of the many gods in this world nor self effort of love to reach some mysterious divine being, but the Word of God, the Word of Christ giving life to the tired soul. When we do not see the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ, there is no power to save, deliver nor resurrect out Spirit. When God is made to be so far and distant, it contradicts the good news of God’s embracing love and closeness to us as a friend, as Saviour, and as God. In Christ, the God of Israel is no longer distant but now family.

Why is a walk of Faith so precious and costly? Because it involves a decision not based on feelings or situation, but a decision to trust in God, and walk by the finished work of the Cross. This is so difficult for many gay christians, some who should have been pastors of great churches, all lost and now have to live in a closet. It is faith that despite all, God is a good God.

The Churches condemnation has caused grave harm to many gay christians. So many have died. The churches have spoken and caused great damage. Instead of being a harmless dove, we have put into the hearts of many gays, a deep self-condemnation. The church doors are closed, and when they are opened in the future, only bones will be seen outside, very dry bones.

There is nowhere to go. The Gospel  messengers are very few but the fields are white unto harvest. For many GLBT churches do not do well especially when we solely focused on queer liberation theology. I have seen a young gay christian enters the church service of a GLBT church but will not return. For the church was too eager to dish the bible, to bring down Jesus from the Cross, to a social justice fighter of their own creation. They read into the bible a queer theology which in most cases is not there and cherry picked the bible to make Jesus a social justice martyr of the common people rather than God and Saviour. Without Jesus being the Alpha and Omega, He would just be another good person, with no power to save. The word of man is preached rather than the Word of God, and the faith of those who took the first step to come to the GLBT church is lost. There is no power nor eternity preached in these churches.

I have seen many preachers with good mainline bible college degrees, and even ordained in major denominations. But today God is not looking for those with outward might nor power, but peasants  (not elites) who move by the Holy Spirit of God. The dove, will only come after Jesus died and rose again, after we preach a resurrected Christ, and the washing of the blood of the lamb. Jesus was poked 5 times, the number of grace, so that out of His piercings, the blood flows out may be the blood for our redemption. It is by His Holy Spirit, and not by the might of long intellectual ramblings of our own humanity.

The God of Israel looks for the humble and the contrite heart, those being mindful of God’s honor and glory, who considered the awesomeness of the Cross of Calvary, as something to be feared and honored and not despised for it is the power to save, the power to bring us close to God and be touched by the Spirit of God because we are of Christ bought by His blood, We fear, lest we see not that Jesus chose to go to the Cross, chose to suffer incredible pain and separation from God the Father. We fear that we do not honour His sacrifice, and love, for the love of God drives us to enter into God’s Holy place to find the empty tomb. For all the great religious leaders left their bones behind, but Christ lives on in our hearts.

Therefore today, let us take time, and listen to the Word of God that we may walk by faith for God will return all that we have lost and much more.